Birth of (CP) Cornelius Project

Those who are very close to me, and know me very intimately, know that when I say my four famous words...you'll want to run....you'll want to hide.....but you'll be sucked in by the energy force called (INTRIGUE)

my four famous words...

I....GOT......THIS.....IDEA........

(rewind...with a fast forward twist, and a side of current)

The next 48 hours are going to be hell, painful, aggravating, and frustrating. I'm going to be rocked to my core, and everything in me will want to run.....I will hate who I am, and others are. I will sense my worthlessness, and understand I've haven't done nearly as much as I could have..........and you know what? I'M GONNA LOVE EVERY MINUTE OF IT..

About a month ago, I grabbed a very close friend of mine, and uttered these very same words. Jared Berry is slowly becoming one of my closest friends. We are "simpatico", very very kindred spirits, even though almost a decade difference in age. I'm really falling in love with the guy, and his heart to reach people, and still take chances.

I approached him with this idea I really felt God laid on my heart. I've worked very closely with the homeless population since I began ministry 11 years ago. I ALSO have always wanted to do documentaries.....(you see where I'm going with this...) So I said "let's be homeless" Nothing long term (still love my family). But let's say 48 hours?

How can we open the churches eyes to making a difference in those who literally have nothing....the answer....you have to get to the root, show facts, and open eyes. That's what we want to do. 2 guys, wanting to raise home missional awareness I mean what can we do for "THE LEAST OF THESE"....

And out of that CP (or Cornelius Project was born). Jared shared with me today as we took some sacred time for scripture sharing in Acts 10. When Peter was summoned to the centurion Cornelius (and yes my mind went straight to the "damn dirty ape" line from Planet of the Apes) digressiiiiing.

Cornelius was the first gentile convert of the new testament. He was the first that God gave Peter  to "cross the line", when God spoke and said "I SHOW NO PARTIALITY". That simple phrase has been ringing in my head all day. God shows no Partiality towards me...the "good looking" pastor with a family vs the homeless gentlemen who has nothing.....

So our goal is to raise awareness on Hot topic/Taboo issues that Church's deal with. Were giving away whatever we produce, in the name of AWAKENING......For the next 48 hours I am not PASTOR JIMMY SMUDA. I am homeless, I am not a daddy, I am homeless, I am not a husband, I am homeless, My address for the next 48 hours is not the beautiful house I reside in valley stream, but NYC Manhattan, the streets my bed. I will eat whatever I find,  beg for spare change (***and give it away to those in true need, along with any donations given to us****)

I am not a writter, preacher, friend or foe...I am not a mentor, councelor, brother or role model.....for the next 48 hours.....I am homeless........I am homeless....

......and pray that I don't come back as "ThE  iDiOt"  I know right now sitting in front of my computer.....

more to come.........ThE iDiOt..

Win baby Win........

I came to a startling revelation that I shared with a young lady last night after one of my teachings.

She was sharing a brief synopsis on her life, and something she was struggling with. Already that day I had spoken at a local College group, Lead my leadership/discipleship team, did the main service teaching and was spent. I had not allot left to give out (and I had already been texting this beautiful young soul all day.) She gave me the cutest smile, and said "Pastor Jimmy, I really do want to be over this "thing". I said there's one simple way. WIN!

During most of the day, I was sharing a chronological message on how in Mark, it states that Jesus was tempted by the devil, and HE WON. Right after that chronologically Jesus comes off the mountain, grabs a couple more disciples, then begins preaching/teaching in the synagogues. Then comes the infamous SERMON ON THE MOUNT. 

My point? If we can transform our minds, to realize that in THE MIDST of the temptation, struggle, valley (insert your christian struggle slogan here) that IF WE WIN, God wants to use us in  a big way IMMEDIATELY.  Jesus' ministry began "after" his biggest temptation....

So back to this beautiful young soul. I looked deeply in her eyes, and said, when your winning, it doesn't matter how long the game is....... when your winning it doesn't matter how hard the struggle is.....YOUR WINNING......

It's when your losing that struggle, valley, (yada yada yada)...THAT'S when it seems to much to bear.

             Don't worry about ( again...fill in the blank to your current catastrophe) just focus on winning, and transform your mind to understand that IF you win, there's a good chance God will want to use you immediately.....

tHe iDiOt.......

LOYALTY

I believe in LOYALTY.

I live loyalty. I breathe loyalty, I eat it....with a spoon.

One of the biggest wrestling matches I've ever had with God was when I realized that I would not stay in one church (the church I came to know Christ in) for 80 years. I left bible college wanting to be at one church, forever. Now several church's later, there is still a nasty taste in my mouth due to this fact.  Recently I took a group on a retreat, and had a conversation about "getting old". People at my current church LOVE to remind me how Old I'm getting. I don't mind. I'm 32. In perspective, in 9 more months I'll have outlived my birth mother, who I always regarded as dying too young. So I'm not hung up on getting old. The conversation went on, and I began sharing how moving so much, deprived me of one of my childhood dreams. Being old, arguing on the front porch with life long friends on who was the greatest quarterback Marino or Montana?

Crabby old men together, discussing how "back in our day we had "pure" role models like PARIS HILTON...Not like these stars today!!!

Needless to say, moving has taken a toll on long distance relationships in my life. 

Through this conversation, I shared my heart on this, and one of my

leaders said 

"then you gotta stay in one place for a while". 

Oh how I wish I could open my chest and show all my heart on this. 

THAT WAS MY DREAM. TO LIVE, BREATH EAT AND DIE IN ONE PLACE!

Proverbs 2:6 (the message) says this: "God gives out WISDOM free, 

is plainspoken in knowledge and understanding. 

He's a rich mine of common sense for those who live well, 

a personal bodyguard to the canddid and sincere. 

HE KEEPS HIS EYE ON ALL WOH LIVE HONESTLY, 

AND PAYS SPECIAL ATTENTION TO HIS LOYALLY COMMITTED ONES.

I love loyalty so much that I have an issue with myself on this one. However I also know

when God has spoken to move on. I think of when God called MOSES to move from the palace

to redeem HIS people. I'm sure the palace was nice, and I know Moses had big plans.

In todays world there is a lack of loyalty, and no place more than the church. Generations upcoming

are bouncing to find the "right fit". Leaving at a moments notice. Or they are even doing

"double duty" attending several churchs at once. I am not opposed to either, nor judge anyone

who does such. I simply wonder how healthy that is for the spirit? Though I know God has

ordained and called each one of mine and Gloria's moves, it is all at a cost. Though we call

ourselves "nomads" at times, more appropriately we've been missionairies to a post-christian

nation. That is not something we ever envisioned, but have obidiently embraced.

At the expense of losing a dream (1 place...forever) God has sent us many places to

teach, dialogue, and encourage loyalty. I just pray when I'm old....the old guys will be there

to argue....and defend the integrity of Paris.....

tHe iDiOt......

Nebraska...what are you doing?

EpHeSiAnS 5:1 (WAKE UP FRM YOUR SLEEP) Watch what God does, and then you do it, like children who learn proper behavior from their parents. Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with him and learn a life of love. Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant. He didn't love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us.LOVE LIKE THAT....(MESSAGE)

Nebraska. Know mainly for CORN and Corn husker football. Now this state has allowed parents to "dump" their children off at any hospital when they have "had enough". As despicable as this is, the thoughts of what these poor children have already learned from their parents. What will the next generation of parenting look like. As I sit here my youngest daughter is watching blues clues, laughing mercilessly. There's nothing in me that could ever imagine "having enough". No matter what she does or does not do. I love where this scripture says "his love was not cautious". Cautious loving is not loving at all. It's simply tolerating. It's placating. We need parents who will grow and love their children extravagantly. 

tHe iDiOt...

STARBUCKS CHURCH

ThE "PREGNANT" man?????

                             So the goal of mine is to "someday" have "someone" comment on "something" on my blog. I ramble (as per the sub title) I'm an idiot (as per basic evidence) . So I'm going on a limb with this posting. I "may" be just controversial enough to get some kind of comment. Maybe not, but here's my cheap attempt at fame and world  recognition (or just a head nod from someone)

So it's painful to watch my wife in anguish during our prego time. Were six months (and I produce BIG FRUIT) so my poor wife has the burden to bear this COLLOSALL child for another 3 months, and my heart just aches to watch (and ears to hear....ehem ehem..) So i let my ridiculous mind wander. What would it be like for "dudes" to give birth. I mean I know we have a higher threshold for pain (ok some of us do). We think a bit more clearly, and of course way more reasonably. So i begin to think this would be a non-issue. Dudes having babies would be cool. I'm a sentementalist too. I tell my wife, if "I" was pregnant, i'd be singing to the baby more, telling it stories in my belly, and the child would have already learned Latin in it's original context.....but that's just me....

Then I ran across this scripture. John 16:21"A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world". Now THAT'S where guys suck, and we blow our chance!

                                                     My wife will forget about all the pain Josiah James Smuda is putting her through .1 seconds after that beautiful little boy appears on the scene (trust me, my girls were collosal as well, and that didn't stop my wife). FASCINATING!! My wife has never once talked negatively of any pregnancy after each of my girls were born. It's an ability to forget (or forgive) the pain....Such a focus on joy....and Love...

            I've delivered during my career many visions, that (at least I think) feel like giving birth. The sweat, tears, "blood", emotions, etc. But during those times, and even now I have a tendancy to REMIND EVERYONE WHO WOULD EVER LISTEN of the anguish, pain, and suffering I had to go through to RECEIVE THAT JOY...WHY? because I'm a great pastor and that's what we do......We remind EVERYONE what WE went through, ALL THE TIME...(they teach us that in seminary, right after learning how to  give guilt to people who miss a sunday....but before we learn the "capitol gains campaign" lessons..)

Needless to say, after reading that scripture, I'm blessed to have found more reasons to call my wife MY HERO and reaffirm how unworthy I am of her love..... She has the ability to see JOY coming...She has the wisdom to know all this pain is going to be worth it, she has the discipline to forget the pain....and she has a husband who's idiotic enough to think he's half the person she is.......

quote the IdiOt....nevermore..

OUR FINEST HOUR

History was mad 2 nights ago. America voted for it's first african american president. Though many fundamental's are in an uproar and furious. I have to admit there's a tinge of excitement in my heart. NOT because I voted Pres-elect Obama, or even agree with half of his policies. But for the fact of the matter that this is the church's finest hour. With the moral neglect agenda future President Obama has in store, Christians all around this great country have the opportunity to finally live out the bible.

Romans 13:1-7 says this: EVERYONE must submit himself to the governing authorities, for therei s no authority except that which GOD has established. The authorities that exist have been established by GOD. Consequently he who rebels against authority is rebelling against what God has institutied". 

1st Timothy 2 says " I urge, then, first of all, that requests, prayers and intercession and thanksgiving be made for everyone. For kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness.

I had 15 text messages on Tuesday night all proclaiming that "WE NOW NEED TO PRAY MORE THAN EVER". 

I responded to each saying "SHOULDN'T WE HAVE ALREADY BEEN PRAYING"

                                    Christians calm down, and stop insulting God as if he has no clue what he is doing. Were primed as a church for "OUR FINEST HOUR" when we can pray for a president we don't fully agree with, or hold the same values. We can finally show that we will stand behind scripture that tells us to focus on PRAYER for our leaders.

Going ballistic and showing rage get's us nowhere. Our job now is to pray. Pray whole heartedly that God will bring leaders around President Obama, that will encourage, strengthen and show him the heart of God.

Wanna do something funny to a christian. When they start ranting and raving about how bad things will be, and ask who you voted for? Make a crazy face and tell them you totally forgot to vote! They're reaction is priceless.