So I'm awaiting my bundle of joy. My baby Boy...Josiah James Smuda WAS to arrive yesterday. As that time went as quickly as it came, the anxiousness began to build. I can only compare it to when as a child you may have been promised that "thing" (b.b. gun, skateboard, doll, trip to Disney, punch in the face....or any other childhood dream). You were promised this "thing". Say your told this "thing" is coming on February 4Th 2009..(and this is where Dr's are ridiculous in their predictions.....the EXACT DATE!) But they give you hope. So you look forward to the day of this "thing". And every waking week has you anticipating the "thing". So time flying as it does gets you more and more amped about said arrival of "thing"...and finally the day is here....you've prepared as best as you know how, and the day is here! Your ready...your waiting....here comes the "thing"......and there goes the day????????????
NOTHING...
A giant thud of disappointment. A loud clang of nothingness.
Philippians 4 is a funny chapter...it starts by saying "let your gentle spirit be known to all men...the Lord is near........hmmm ALL MEN? Gentle spirit? and again i say hmm.
When your living in anxiousness there's no possible way to show a "gentle" anything to anyone...It goes on to say
"be anxious for nothing. but in everything by prayer supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be known to God".
then the clincher....
"and the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus"..
BE ANXIOUS FOR NOTHING! When you want something so bad you can't click on all cylinders, it's hard to fight anxiousness. But scripture is clear on these 2 points.
1. Despite our circumstances, the "GENTLE" spirit is still a requirement.
2. GOD IS NOT INTERESTED IN MY WORRY, HE'S INTERESTED IN MY TRUST, MY DIALOGUE WITH HIM (or supplication) AND OBEDIENCE.
obedience to know His answer is always....always....ALWAYS perfect......
then comes the fun part. The part where we lose focus on due to "over" supplication, and anxiousness.....
THE PEACE OF GOD, WHICH PASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING....OR COMPREHENSION.
whenever I get the chance to pray for ANYONE, this is the one constant I pray over people. When we get the peace that is beyond our own definitions......
the "thing", can take it's course.
Josiah....I patiently await to be your daddy...
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